i hate it when i know i have done something wrong.
i hate it when i feel like i havent been the best.
i hate it when i can feel the whispers that are going on behind me.

i have used someone. mainly just to make myself feel better.

well, i dont feel better and i know all i am going to end up doing is hurting this person more and more if i keep contact with them. all i am going to do is break their heart.

for the record, jim..its not you. stop worrying, hon.

i tend to run away from people. i also tend to make people fall in love with me and then drop them. i dont think i mean to most of the time, so i guess i dont make them. but, i know that in the end i run. i run rather fast as far as i can get from the person. then i hide.

i am often reminded that i am still a scared little girl.
i am often reminded that i am a lonely little girl.
i am often reminded that not many people care.

i wish for truth.
from myself and others.

2002-11-21 - 3:39 p.m.
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