saturday i get to go take some type of driving class. i dont really want to, its more of i have to. from 9 am to 4 pm, i get to sit in a little room with people i have never met who are much older than me and listen to an officer tell me my rights and rules.
fun, fun

i dont think i said anything about the flaming lips show. it was pretty good. met afew people. hung out with this guy named starshine.
or so he calls himself

i dont think i could have anymore ex boyfriends/friends in one room. i think pretty much ever guy i ever dated in the atlanta area was there.

i think i am going to hurt someone tomorrow. i am just having to build myself up to do it. i dont really want to, but i cant handle this at the moment. too much going on and way too much to worry about. all i know to do is end the current relationship and rebuild a new one.

i really suck at that

but *sigh* i've hurt two people this week, why not go for a third?

a friend told me that i have no people skills awhile back. i think he was right. i mean, lets face it. i suck at starting conversations, i cannot handle stress, and i hate getting butterflies in my tummy.

but, i can recover relationships well. and i sometimes know how to fix things i have broken.

i guess thats all that matters, then.

living, truly living, is finding the love and happiness in a each day by yourself. finding the one nitch that can just make you smile like no other, and brighten your eyes. no person can give you love like this. no object, no parent.

to find true happiness you have to clean your soul and be open to anyone and anything. to find true happiness, i personally suggest leaving your windows wide open in the winter just so everyone can hear your post-mod english rock music and you singing the words.

to find true happiness, i personally suggest drinking coffee outside and watching the sun come up.
alone.

you get one chance to find true love. you have to take every chance you get to have it.
you have to take chances with yourself, also.

explore the fact that there is a world outside the norm and change someone's outlook forever.

to find true happiness, i personally suggest looking for your freedom.
find it and never let it go. find your acceptance and love it always.

say what you think and feel. be open to change.

chance is one of the greatest things a human can know. it keeps our lives open and happy. it keeps out world different. it makes us think twice.

to find true happiness, i personally suggest loving everyone for who they are.

love yourself for who you are

2002-11-13 - 1:37 a.m.
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